Wednesday, June 21, 2017


I know it has been a little while and its been a bit of radio silence from me.

This is just a simple post stating where we are at on our journey without Eva here. I am working on her birth story but its been hard to fill in the missing pieces. The hard part is I don't remember much about details. Not because I was on anything, it was just a different experience. So I need to piece together what I don't have.

I have appreciated all you reaching out via messages, Facebook, calls and texts. I appreciate you thinking of us and taking the time out of your day to let us know we are in yours thoughts. I am sorry I if I don't reply or answer your calls. While this is going so fast I still struggle with wanting to talk to anybody- to me it just feels like so much work and energy I don't feel like I have. I appreciate all who have reached out and continue to do so. Just know I appreciate it so much, I just don't know what to say or what right now.

As far as recovery- my body has handled this pretty well. We were worried about hemorrhaging but I didn't have that issue. Thank goodness. Its been a quick body recovery.

As far as our mental and emotional state- we have been doing good. We have our days that are harder than others but we have just been enjoying our time we have together. We miss Eva so much and we feel like we don't know what our place is right now on how we should be acting or what we should be doing. Nobody told us this about grief. We have our really good days and our really bad hard days. So days I feel as if grief should have a timeline, but it doesn't.

This about wraps it up, I wanted to be quick and brief about it. We are doing okay. We feel your love, thoughts, and prayers and appreciate them dearly.

I know people are wanting updates and information about Eva's birth. I am getting to it and will probably get it finished within the next little while. I appreciate your patience with me.

I stumbled on this song one day and I feel I couldn't have said it any better than Celine. I am Recovering.


  1. This is a beautiful song. Love you Sadee, take your time. You've been in our thoughts and prayers all day every day 💕

  2. I am so grateful for the blessings of the temple. You are stronger than you know and together as husband and wife, you are unstoppable. It is ok to be sad. It is ok to be be mad. It is ok to feel however you are feeling. Give yourself permission to have those feelings. They are perfectly ok to have. God will mend your broken hearts and will also give Eva back to you to raise and love on for all eternity. I am here if you need anything. We love you all.

  3. I've been thinking about you Sadee and keeping you in my prayers.